Very recently I have been diagnosed with a depressive episode… Now what does that truly mean? It’s very simple – it’s an inner feeling which not just I but many individuals in the world out there encounter at some point.
But how does that feel exactly?
- I realized I couldn’t keep a brave face anymore and smile, just because that would have been the common and embracing thing to do
- I felt lonely and empty at most times
- I was overwhelmed by a feeling of sadness that resulted in sometimes impulsive emotional reactions towards people around me
- I wasn’t capable to focus anymore
But more importantly, I had forgotten how something very specific feels – happiness. It’s that feeling of “ease” the notion of having butterflies in one’s stomach, like when you fall in love or ride a roller coaster or encounter something truly magnificent that seems to be touching your heart.
Now apart from seeking professional help (which I did and can recommend anyone to do), I have decided that only I am the owner of my own happiness. As much as people or things from the outside can influence us for the good and the bad, we still need to find a way to reach that point of happiness again, by ourselves and most importantly, for ourselves.
Why am I sharing this?
Because I feel I am not the only “lost soul” out there, because it feels better when someone else is part of that journey, because this blog is about happiness – there can never be enough happiness shared with the world.
So this is me, this is why I am doing this and I am happily inviting you to join the ride and maybe find some or other happy thing for yourself out of my personal path which I want to share with you.
Love and Happiness to you
Sarah
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